What can be better to explain what happened in 2016 than the songs I listened to most this year?
I started 2016 with a list full of resolutions, but the most important was: being happy.
I think that I’ve accomplished it, but some months were complicated. I was so happy until April.
In March my life suddenly broke when my company told me that I had to leave New York. I had to leave my life there, and the people that made me happy.
I tried to forget my last life and start a new one. I tried to let it go for a long time, tried to have a voluntary amnesia to forget everything that used to make me happy, but I couldn’t. My memories were always there, I didn’t need to see any photograph because all the experiences that I lived were always in my mind.
Finally, I achieved it. I came back in September (four months after leaving) and I recovered my previous life, but I think that it was not actually my old life. I was a better me, a different version of me and I found a new life there.
The last few months my life have been a roller coaster. Sometimes I’ve felt that nobody could crash my party but sometimes I’ve felt that time was running out and I was wasting it. I experienced pretty things and sad things.
I feel that I’m in a fast car but I don’t know what the last stop is. At least this time I’m the driver…
In 2016 I said “It doesn’t matter” so many times when It actually really mattered. I won’t do the same.
Sometimes it’s hard to know what is good for you, but I know what is not good for me. I don’t want a skinny love. I want to have people in my life who don’t leave me, people who don’t let me down. If you are going to hurt me, please get out of my life before this year ends. I can live without you.